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Diary of Heart

by Mega Negative

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1.
Faithless 02:32
I've buried myself in this mess But I've waited a lifetime for this I'm barely alive with nothing to show for my sins In moments I've made up my mind To leave all that I've known far behind I walk out the door not knowing what's out there to find And I've waited for someone to come But I've made it all alone And I'm praying that this won't just render me Faithless, all withered and worn But at least I found my soul
2.
Down With Me 03:25
I melt my world away With every little thing I have to say I won’t regret one word Now all my friends are here And I’ll be damned if I show any fear I’ll raise my glass And try not to laugh As I say You’ll never take my place You are the enemy And now I’m Parading patiently You’re going down with me And I’m not turning back My very principles Have taken me to heights I’ve never known I see you far below Now all our beds are made And I can barely see through all the shade I won’t comply But I can’t deny What I’ve been You’ll never take my place You are the enemy And now I’m Parading patiently You’re going down with me And I’m not sorry
3.
Cyanide 04:05
Well I could do this to myself all day with no apologies But please consider for a minute that I’m struggling To keep my mind at ease To save face I’ll hold my tongue a moment I know what I'll do I’ll just drown myself until I feel at home But so much can be so little when you’re alone If only you would let me be your baby I'd have a place to call my home If only you would let me be your baby I wouldn't be driving myself Crazy, no one ever goes Crazy, like I went for you My cyanide, my little pill Crazy, no one ever goes Crazy, like I went for you If you don't want me now You never will So I've come to terms with things And learned from my mistakes I know just at what point I'm gonna break (I'm gonna break!) So I follow close behind And stay out of your way You'll know when I've prepared my serenade But how much more of this can someone take So I show you to my little room Where I run and hide I know just what I've waited for And this is what I find Take a look around and see that Babe there’s only me I know just what you’ve got and darling, It’s just what I need. If only you would let me be your baby We’d have a life to call our own If only you would let me by your baby You wouldn’t have to die alone I went crazy, like I went for you I went crazy, like I went for you I went crazy I went crazy You didn’t want me And now you never will
4.
The Lurch 05:00
I’ve got a lot on my mind And soon you’ll find I’ve got a real black heart And now you’re mine You're forced to play the victim in this lonely game By those who never bothered to know your name Was I the only one who wanted you? Who saw the loneliness behind your eyes? When all you’ve taken for yourself Has left you down and paralyzed I'm the only one who wanted you Who dared to love the madness in your smile Will you see you’re all for me? I want you all to myself If you don't mind I think it’s time I bare my soul to you Just be careful what you find I wanna be right there with you When you lose your mind So quick to point the finger in this lonely game Towards those who never bothered to know your name And you You’ve got me in your web Bound by every limb Held to every sin And your Your venom is in my soul It seeps from every pour I kinda like it though If you don’t want me, let me go
5.
Treatment 02:52
I wanna talk about the drugs And all the sex And all the ways in which I lost your respect 'Cause I’m a fiend, and I won’t lie 'Cause it’s the only way I know to feel alive I’m a little bit of everything I just can’t help Afraid to lose my mind and lose control If I could do a little better I would just say no But that’s not what I’m after I just don’t want to feel a thing I just don’t want to feel a thing anymore I just don’t want to feel a thing I need my fucking medicine I want it rough And I won’t listen when you say I’ve had enough 'Cause I could live or I could die But it’s the only way I know to feel alive 'Cause I’m a little bit of everything I just can’t help More afraid to lose my mind than lose control If I could do a little better I would just say no But that’s not what I’m after I just don’t want to feel a thing
6.
I see you walking up, I feel like walking away But something in your eyes is telling me I should stay Well I made a promise to myself I’d never love again But here I am with open arms to take you in The look you give me makes me shiver in my skin Your touch is like a fire and it is oh so tempting Well my heart is saying I told you so But what if I give in? Could you promise you won’t do me wrong again? Well say something baby Say something baby If you wanna fight I’ll be here tonight, just be here tonight I feel your eyes on me but only when we're alone But what's it even matter if you never come home So just take all that you need from me And send me on my way Would you care if I was loyal anyway?
7.
Some tell me I should take it slow 'Cause you know I'm never letting go And you're never breaking me So save your breath and your judging eyes 'Cause you still have yet to realize That you're never breaking me Think I might know a little something about myself As if I ever gave a damn about anyone else Well I'll have my drinks and smoke my cigarettes And I'll live my life with no regrets Won't live in silence I will have my sex and violence Yes I will Yeah you know I will Don't bother with your prayers now I've got a million ways to tell you how You're never breaking me If I'm a liar, you're a loaded gun If you're offended, you're the only one But you're never breaking me So my petulance and spite be damned I'm gonna live my life the way I am
8.
Lord I know I've been broken Sometimes I've barely the strength left to stand Though my eyes have been opened I'm barely a man So your life is in tatters Hold your breath when there's room left to breathe Bite your tongue in this matter 'Cause it matters to me But I worry about the lives Are they vacant, are they passengers When your fairy tail fails its design And your prayers are failures and lies Bet your life on this martyr Wait and see if there's something to see Truth be told I won't listen I won't pardon the creed You're waiting for a sign But no savior's gonna save your soul And your fairy tale has left us all behind 'Cause your prayers are failures and lies Save us from the lie Love will get us by We only have the night I've waited for the day When there'd be more to say Than wishing on a star To tell us who we are Save us from the lie Save us from the lie Love will get us by We always have the night Save us from the lie

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released May 26, 2020

Written by Mega Negative
©2020 Mega Negative, All Rights Reserved
Recorded at Fetsounds Recording Studio in San Marcos, TX
Mixed and produced by Chris Tapia
Mastered by Mark Hallman at Congress House Studio in Austin, TX

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Mega Negative Austin, Texas

Dirty rock n' roll from Austin, TX.

Mega Negative began rocking the stages of Austin and surrounding areas in May of 2019 with their own blend of guitar driven rock, catchy melodies, memorable lyrics, and progressive song structures. Their first EP, Diary of Heart, was released in May of 2020 and the band is currently writing songs for their second studio album. ... more

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